potter was pretty damn good :) much thanks to karen for watching it again with me. hehe. hmm was in a walking mood today. so on the way home. i got off at aljuned again. walked to payalebar. which was quite nice. cos the weather's really cool and pleasant. walked a new route and walked past my old math tution center. was a nice suprise. haha. but it was stupid on my part because before i got off the train, it was not rush hour so it was quite empty. but when i got back on at payalebar it was bloody rush hour so i had to miss a couple of SARDINEPACKED trains. then got out again at tampines. got a donut and proceeded to walk home. i'd done it before with my sis, but i FORGET how scary it is walking that route, alone especially. i wanted to cry about halfway through the walk. because there was literally no turning back. thank god it didnt start raining. or i would have been a real pathetic joke. 0.0 actually i think i already am one :( so what started out to be a therapeutic walk in the cool air with nice music was just a big fat workout in the cool air with nice music.

i still have not touched war lit. =x i havent touched it like since before prelims! (hint, i didnt even study for it at prelims)

oh yeah, and my mum kind of got me this job opening at sengkangprimary to teach math, english AND science (very demanding, yes). it's a really good opportunity i think. cos one, teaching might be what i have to end up doing in future and two, 54bucks a day is pretty damn good. but then again, it will be until i go into uni (if i go into uni) and that means i dont have much time for myself! and also, i suck at public speaking. i can so imagine myself quitting on day two because the kids couldnt hear me or they were mean to me or something like that.. hmm. argh. whatever man. shall worry about that like later.

thanks alot. that was really what i needed :(

i feel like i'm at square zero now. with much much less desire to put in effort now. it's times like this that i wish i could just shrivel up and wither away like a flower who's time is up, or shut the door on the world. i need someone to sit by me in silent comfort :(