argh i really hate this. everytime i bitch on my blog i end up feeling damn bad. so i'm sorry. (hah if you think it's you i'm talking about here, then well, says something doesnt it?) but yeah i'm sorry for saying what i said. i'm sorry for hating my life. i shouldnt, because i know that i'm really too blessed. i'm sorry for hating myself, because God created me the way i was for a reason, i just need to find that reason. truthfully, knowing this is the only thing that's helping me keep from falling into depression/self-hate/public bitchiness etcetc. sometimes though, i wish i had this major tragedy in my life. so i had the excuse to feel the way i do sometimes. 75% of my feelings are second-hand emotions, derieved from music/books/movies/television shows. sad huh.

i need to fall into peace and contentment.