school was really really slack. was on the verge of hating myself for deciding to come to school. but then i would probably hate myself too if i missed out on such a no-brainer day. spent the bulk of the time discussing ways to escape the school grounds and the horribly long track meet. this included recceing the back of the sports complex for holes and misplacing certain padlocks. but in the end debbie and i decided on the more safe option of signing up for squash finals.
anyway, backtrack to the issue of misplacing padlocks. i dont like the feeling of being disapproved. i dont know why it matters so much to me. i guess it's because i'm so used to being on the other side of the discussion. but seriously, i just have to say WHAT THE F-WORD is up with some people man. do you really think you are god(it's just an allusion, not using his name in vain =x)? blameless in every way? giving you the right to judge other people? and fine if you feel that way. i mean we are all entitled to our own opinion. but have you ever heard of discretion?? and there goes whatever trust i had in you. i really hate the feeling of being judged. you always make me feel like a fake, like i have to be something i am not. i know deepdeepdeep down you are a good person with good intentions, but really, i don't believe i can deal with this stress on me now. you are not my burden. and there, my whole myriad of feelings towards not one, but two people. just had to get it out. it's been eating at me for a while honestly, and i guess it just ate me all out today.
on to better things. our escape plan at squash finals went pretty successfully! impromptu is the way to go! haha bused down to town and studied a little at macs. then debbie left and i went down to orchardlibrary to meet shar. studied some more there before dinner at bk. then down to paragon collect our prettyful earrings. yay! i am a little worried about my lack of appetite lately tho. i keep having this awful feeling of nausea rising up my throat, and a dull throb of queasiness in my stomach. have not been eating well. i miss me food :( but i really do feel sick. URGH. at least the flu seems to be going away, thank God :)
so today was boring, tho not uneventful, complicated, but lucid. (balanced sentences balanced sentences! i'm not entirely spaced out in mrprince's lessons. :D) i need to talk to my lysenizzle :(