i'm back to posting here because my wonderfully wonderful computer seems to have STM. literally. you save something, it disappears in the next restart. to add to that, all my documents have disappeared. program files - still there. music/picture files - all gone. :( anyway, i kind of prefer blogging here because there is certain extent of privacy unless someone googled me or just stumbled into here. anyways, that's not the point. i felt i had to rant here about my sickness and my shitty chinese test today. because you know the feeling of blogging is tantamount to screaming your frustrations out on the mountain top and yada yada yada.
oh my goodness. being sick is no fun-o at all-o. blocked nose. noisy breathing. tearing eyes. sore throat. blocked ears. aching body parts. HEADACHE. thank goodness school wasnt very mentally strenuous today. but then. for double chinese the teacher decided to pop a suprise test on us. that onehundred minutes went by sooooo slowly and painfully. my brain felt like it had been stepped on and kicked and manhandled after that. and i onehundred percent-ly screwed the test up. my knowledge of chinese words equal about 1% of the total chinese words that exist. very depressing indeed. oh and when i decided to retake chinese, i kinda had the impression that i would only be taking the one and only ao exam at the end of may. BUT NO. bombshell two was dropped and not only are there chinese prelims but also some moe examination thingo. which equals 3+3+2 hours of torture!! PURE TORTURE. i fcking better get a C6 or i swear i might just shoot myself. dflkjowihfgldngjghaowihtg at stupid chinese. rar rar rar.
anyway, went to queensway with shar after that. bought a new schoolbag! a backpack! practicality and functionality are the new in! hahah. then had HAGAAN DAZ!! oh how i missed it! but i felt so bloody sinful eating the belgian chocolate coated in chocolate fudge when my throat was so painful. :( outside the icecream, i think i had one of the most honest conversations i ever had, today. hmm hmm. could i finally be opening up a little? hahah maybe letting out emotions and feelings and thoughts aren't so dangerous and scary after all. oh dearie me. i do hope this doesnt come back and haunt me later on =x. why oh why is it so hard to trust people! sighh. i do find that people seem to find it very easy to unload their secrets on me though. i'm not trying to say anything, but do i have the 'i-am-very-nice-and-trusty-and-will-guard-your-secrets-with-my-life' look on my face? not to say that i am not nice and trusty and well guarding of secrets. haha. damn words are so complicated. hidden connotations everywhere!
F-WORD. i hate it when i can't breathe properly through two functioning nostrils!! GAHHH.