i am very not at peace with myself. and i feel like i dont think i ever will be for the rest of this year. my cert with the chinese grade and pw grade looks like bloody SHIT. they didnt even put down my chinese grade. i dont know if that makes the cert look better or worse. this is the ugliest cert of my life. people are screwing with me. it sucks when your one relationship with a person is connected to so many others in your life. only five more months.

it sucks that when i feel like i'm ready to do something to make it better i don't get the freaking chance.

hmm which is worse i wonder..to regret not doing something or to regret doing something?