wow today completely sucked. like what did i go to school for? 6 straight periods of doing nothing. all i had was war lit and double econs. had to do a bloody case study for econs which just killed. i hate doing things when i know i'm doing crap. like i just can't bring myself to write crap knowingly, you know? i figure you might as well just not do it. haha save yourself the trouble. stayed back for LIT TIMED EXERCISE today. wow guess what. surprise surprise..... it suckkkkks! ah. i know i've got the wrong attitude here. but i can't bring myself to be motivated! or hardworking or whatever. gave up writing about half an hour into the thing and went on to do my usual scribbling and scrawling nonsense before finally resorting to reading vintage in bid to make time pass faster. my very warped logic is that i dont want to take the As more times than i have to! i mean prelims werent all that long ago! and now timed exercises and mock exams. i'm going to commit suicide before i even reach A levels man. argh it's so frustrating! i hateeee being forced to do things i dont want to, even if they are for my own good. and to make things worse, going for the timed exercise means that i have to take the 6 o clock train home which is fiiiiiillllleeeeed with PEOPLE. yuck. ARGH. what a shitty shitty shitty day :(


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