i've come to realise that i dont really have a conscience of my own. i base my feelings of guilt on however people guilt trip me or by other people's standards. and why should i! why why why. and again, i think i'm just doing this to ease my induced guilt. like i dont know if not going to school so often is wrong, cos as long as the teachers/my classmates/my parents dont hassle me i dont give a shit. or maybe i do, seeing how i'm typing this right now trying to make myself feel better.

i hate how i'm full of excuses. i don't know what's real or true anymore.
'don't act it up!' i wish i were acting it up actually....

anyway i think i'm quite high and drunk (read: looselipped) today. saying things without thinking or caring. it's good i think, for now at least.

p.s. i think toot from shootingstars is damn freaking cute too...but i can't find a picture :(

simple way
to make my day.