omg. during assembly today, i was told that i had to relief a pe class during the first period (which was supposed to be free!). first of all, it was a p5 class. and honestly, the p5s and 6s scare me. they've gone past the cute stage and right into the big and gross stage. second of all, and more importantly, me teach pe?! i'm the girl that runs away from the freaking ball, that stands at the sidelines during any sports. furthermore, i was freaking wearing heels and long pants while all the other pe teachers were in their shorts and sports shoes, so yes i looked and felt pretty damn stupid. so like there was 15minutes left of the period after assembly. we went down. i made them do warm up, whereby they proceeded to run haphazardly around the parade square. then i accidentally sent the wrong people into the pe storeroom, accidentally sent them to play basketball while a voice in the back of my mind echoed something from a meeting about no playing in the basketball courts on a rainy day. and sure enough, the uncle chased us off. i sent them to play captains ball without realising they need cones or chairs or whatever it was. and before too long, the bell rang. the kids looked at me like i totally ruined it for them cos they didnt actually get to play anything. and to end it all, one of the BIG boys started crying cos some other dude touched his arm or something like that la. i'm so pathetic i can't stand it. thank goodness they didnt give me pe classes or i really dont know what i'd do.

the rest of the day was pretty much just as crappy. my form class decided to be rowdy and uncooperative today. take that times ten for the math class. i had to juggle 5 bad boys who just KEPT playing with that damn noisy paper toys which i keep confisicating and they keep making, 4 well-intentioned kids who keep coming up to me to tell on the other kids, 2 more criers (BOTH BOYS), 1 boy who keeps coming up to me and saying happy new year (and once he even added in happy deepavali for good measure i'm sure) and of course to top it all of, my king of terror. damnit these kids are robbing me of my sanity and health. at the end of every day, i feel like i just had ten heart attacks not to mention the state of my throat.

and after school i attempted to start on class decorations. it's really near impossible doing it on your own. you just wanna scream cos like there's no second opinion, no one to hold up the paper while you staple it down, no one to GIVE YOU SOME DAMN IDEAS especially when your art sucks. ROAR.

had dinner with aunt at the airport. satisfied my strange and random banbian craving. and bought a new book! the times bookstore is so cool cos they give you a free plastic cover which is really very practical so good on them. also did supermarket shopping! i love coldstorage and it's great range of stuff. i got my white chocolate digestives! yippee! haha. i'm really annoyed that the stress is making me snack so much tho. it's like, i keep feeling so ravenous and every time i go to the staffroom i feel the need to eat something. bad bad bad. argh ok this entry's really long but i feel better after that rambling :D