just had some major panic attack trying to change my courses for NUS. yes, just two hours before the deadline, and i switched my choices all around. and i have also decided to completely forgo SMU. i think it's just not the place for me. it's too rah-rah. thank goodness application for uni has somewhat come to a close. now i just wait i guess. ugh i'm so not looking forward to starting uni.

anyway, the last two days saw me drowning in marking. now i fully understand what my teachers meant when they said that for every piece of work we do, it's 40 times that for them. 45 times in my case. not to mention the fact that i have to clear everything, including bloody corrections, by this week before the new teacher comes in. so this morning i deployed some early birds to help me carry stacks of wbs down to the parade square and just conducted some mass corrections thing. and STILL i have corrections undone or wrong and books missing. omg it's a freaking nightmare chasing them for these things.

and today i had to relief pe again. i am just NOT in ANY way cut out to be a pe teacher. it just doesnt work man. disaster would be an understatement. two kids fell down. one had to be sent home. another two kids got into a fight and starting shouting vulgar words at each other. omg i had to physically hold them apart and sit through both sides of the long and complicated story before lecturing them to the best of my ability. and then later one of them went off with my pass and i didnt even realise until i had to get into the staffroom. 0.0

and that naughty boy from way back in my first math class has taken to shouting 'miss goh is an idiot!' or 'miss goh is a pig! a fat fat pig!' across the canteen or from the second to first floor. in fact a few of them are starting to do that. and it's really quite disturbing. i mean i'm not offended or whatever. i dont really care actually. but i think it's kind of embarrassing if other teachers hear it. and i really don't know what to do about it other than ignore them which only seems to make them shout it louder.

oh yes, and while rushing back to the staffroom so that i could have a quick bite before remedial, i was VERY UNFORTUNATELY stalled by a couple of p4s i used to teach. apparently some girl fell down and couldnt walk. but honestly, i think she was just hamming it up. i mean you can tell, from the exaggerated way she winced and reacted only sometimes when her leg was touched. but anyway, she just REFUSED to move and i couldnt very well ignore them. so i basically spent what was left of my lunch break helping her get to a bench. zzz.

ok anyway, it was my last day with 3faith today. strangely, out of five p3 classes, i would say that that was the nicest class to teach. because they actually want to study. so when you teach them you get response. and there are actually moments of PURE SILENCE when they do their work. except for those few that have made my throat extremely sore from screaming at them. but i've grown to like even those annoying ones. like these two very problematic kids who just LOVE to talk at the top of their voices and bully other kids. stayed back with them one day after school and they told me their story about how people used to bully them in p1. one of them is totally pro in the computer and screen too and completely saved my ass in class once when i just couldnt freaking for the life of me get the screen up. haha. and my surnamesake, the boy who's so damn vulgar and disruptive in class. after days of staying back during recess and after school and partnering me whenever they line up, i really have a soft spot for him now. it's strange how these kids are so annoying in a classroom environment, but one on one, they are really actually just good kids. i'll kind of miss them. but i'm still glad this one week's over. wonder what next week entails. i was so busy and swarmed this week i didnt have time to properly feel lonely in school yet. =x

anyway, went to watch V for Vendetta after sch with jol. the movie rocks! i really loved it. i want to watch it again tho, because i was kind of confused at the beginning. anyway, lido cinemas TOTALLY SUCK. esp the small ones. it's so small, so dark, so cramped, smells weird and the seats arent even elevated. so i had a pretty damn good view of the head of the person in front of me. boo.

totally tired now. have a STACK of things to mark over the weekend. and i'm feeling irritated. and i know but dont know why.