omg please tell me this is pms.

i'm going insane with this whole emotional frustration and sheer irritation. in school, i just get so annoyed that they gave me two shitty classes for a whole week. the p4 class just wont stop talking, wont listen even when i scream and scream and scream, and i just feel so claustrophobic in there cos the classroom seems exceptionally small, and there seems to be alot of them in there. the p6 class just hates me i swear. i can't even be bothered to make them greet me. and there's this bitch, i really hate her man. she's this like super bossy, loudmouthed and rude girl who pisses the hell out of me. ARGH i really hate that class man. thank goodness there's only one more period left with them.

BLOODY HELL and the worst part is i'm effing screwed now because i screwed up. (ok i just realise how stupid that sentence sounds) i thought i only had to give the retest to 2 pupils when it was actually 3. (YOU CAN'T REALLY BLAME ME OK I WAS HORRIBLY PREOCCUPIED BECAUSE I WAS GOING TO COLLECT MY A LEVEL RESULTS THAT DAY) and i didnt admit it to the teacher just now when she called me. so i'm screwed screwed screwed. cos i don't have a period to let him do it and i have to get it done by tomorrow. ARGH. i really don't like the HODs, so WHY IN BLOODY HELL DO THEY KEEP MAKING ME COVER FOR THEM AND MAKE ME SO DAMN STRESSED! :( :( :( :( ARGH and have i mentioned i HATE P6s!! they are hormonally imbalanced, rude brats that have NO REDEEMING FEATURE to them. ARGH

AND, at home, my parents just keep on talking about uni and hello i just got my results yesterday i really don't want to even think about this now. especially when i've just had such a day. and i'm losing my ability to be coherent now. and i really think i'm not cut out to be a teacher anymore (i know i'm digressing) because all i seem to be doing lately is screwing up or being redundant. and i hate the feeling of disapproval i think i get from the other teachers. and some of kids either just won't leave me alone or won't bloody stop talking and it's really getting on every last nerve i have left. and i really hate feeling this way and whinging this way.

anyway, on a different note. results were a sigh of relief because i got exactly what i was targeting for. whoop for gp tho because i really thought i'd screwed it up, what with not finishing my summary and all. and sports heats today was kind of amsuing. some of the teachers are really funny and nice. :) i hate the whole idea of sports day and everything tho. i've hated it ever since i was in primary school as a student. and being in that bus right smack in the middle of all those sweaty kids was just pretty horrific.

shit i still don't know what i'm going to do about that retest thing. i thought writing about it here would make it seem less like an issue but i'm really screwed. more because i didnt admit that i hadnt given all three the test than anything else. and my sentences are really sounding funny so i will stop now.