i was just thinking, if i werent such a ditzy person, alot more better things would happen in my life. ok not so much better things, but definitely more things would happen. i'm utterly amazed at how i can forget my anger so fast. and also and how i can forget my problems as well. it's like, i have a problem at hand, yet i can push it way into a corner of my brain and it only comes back again at the very last minute where i absolutely have to resolve it. and i still havent figured if this is a good or bad thing.

anyway, today sucked. i managed to swap two of the seven periods for other periods. those other periods were complete heaven man. it was as if i had been chained to that secluded mad house way up on the fourth floor for the past week and had finally been let out to interact with more normal people. the p5 class was cooperative for themselves, the two p1 classes were an absolute joy (i love p1s. it takes so little to shut them up. and they are so small and cute. and one class cheered when they saw me. hahaha what a way to inflate my ego man.) and the p4 class was so quiet when i entered i thought they were having an exam. i didnt want to break the silence so i didnt even ask them to greet me and just skulked into the class. and to my UTTER surprise and joy, the silence was maintained. HOOOOOooooray.

anyway, on to the sucky part. my five periods with that zoo. it's just such a downward spiral with them man. they are driving me up the wall and making me psychotic. and i am really freaked out by how i become when i'm in that class. in the last period, i was screaming at them and trying to teach them LENGTH which they don't freaking get. you know, i cannot tolerate extreme stupidity. it really pisses me off when people just DONT GET IT. i'm not even talking about accademics. they are all like sieves. tell them something and it just goes zip right through the left ear and out the right. scold them and they smile at you (that pisses me off the most!) and i'm so pissed with myself as well for not having enough patience and control.

ANYWAY, took a nap after work then went down to cityhall to meet shar, fi and karen for dinner. but all i had was a pork floss bun and waffles and icecream. eeks. my stomach feels fat and bloated and it feels like it's going to explode. and i kind of wish it would because it feels really uncomfortable.

and aras won survivor. the first time ever that my survivor cutie won. but i don't really like his personality. and he became fat at the reunion!