feeling very unsettled because there has been a sudden influx of new teachers. there are about 10 new faces i think. nie and relief and new staff members. i didnt catch a single name. the staffroom is overstuffed. and i'm feeling increasingly guilty for taking up a table and not doing anything really constructive at it. luckily today i marked some books. heh.

anyway, i'm so pathetic. i broke two plastic spoons trying to eat my nasi lemak. :( i was too embarrassed to go down and get yet another one from the aunty so i had to eat with like half a spoon :( and today, i coteached (cotaught?) the whole day but didnt really do much because she was just introducing new topics. and when it was finally math (the one subject i am actually quite helpful in), one of the office ladies came up to tell me to take over a p6 class - my art class. -.- when i went in they were all like huh? art teacher? (they dont know my name. bahh) and so instead of spending one hour being useful, i spent one hour chasing BIG, violent and vulgar kids back to their seats. it even came to a point where i had to beg the naughtiest ones to just please stay by my side and not move. which they obliged for like a whole minute before running off to bash another of their friends. so finally i decided to just sit at the teachers table and watch them run amok (i've always wanted to use that expression!) thank goodness it's an airconditioned class so the rest of the school doesnt see/hear the chaos. whatever it is, i'm just thankful i dont take them for art anymore. heeheeehee :D

feeling damn useless cos no one listens to me :( and feeling damn stressed cos i have to take my coform class tmr by myself. being alone with them for just 5 mins just now almost killed my head.

on the way out of school, i crossed paths with a bunch of kids going to their childcare center. some of them started calling out 'miss goh miss goh!' and it was damn funny cos their teacher taking them to the childcare center shouted back at them, 'who said to go!'. hahaha. poor kiddos.

anyway, i think i'm too susceptible to smiles.

ok tuition now. oh yes, and i must say i feel extremely sorry for australia! to have lost the match in the last minute :( damn, all the countries i wanted to stay in the competition (for non football related reasons haha) are out already. life is really getting miserable.