i'm feeling so jaded i'm pissing myself off. somehow when i'm with people, i feel okay. but when i'm alone, i feel so damn blueee. but at the same time i also want to be alone? hohum.

i have 12 documents to print tomorrow. tutorials to prepare for thursday. a report due on friday. readings for psych where i'm 4chapters behind. learning for econs where i dont even know how behind i am. sea readings which i'm pretty damn behind as well. and i just checked the answers for eng test and my wrong answers outweigh my correct answers by so much i think i'll end up with zero marks since it's BLOODY NEGATIVE MARKING (whoever invented this shit?) and as for bio, i just dont want to think about it cos the presentation is over and i've s/u ed it after all so i should not worry too much. (HA i'll die laughing if i actually end up having the highest grade for bio and i actually have this horrible feeling i will)

so anyway, that was my accademic panic babble.

and for the record, watched prestige with karen today. coffeebeaned with xue and chels, sushi and ice cream for dinner at the airport with sis and d!

anyway this is my prescription for myself, so eunice please listen and follow ok. (tho i hardly ever follow prescriptions but i shall this time i guess):

essentially, i shall be a mugger from now till the end of exams in early dec. no more shopping unnecessarily. no more wasting hours online doing nothing of importance. no more thinking about stupid things from the past. no more fantasizing about the not so possible future. no more being lost. BE FOCUSED DAMNIT. ok can do this. i really dont want to screw up first sem of first year. so i will do this. and i will start by going to school early tomorrow to print my stuff, top up my cashcard, sign my forms and read up before psych lecture. AND i will also read on the train. i will read wherever i can! nerd out! hahah. ok goals are good. goals are making me happy. and i think i'm going crazy. so bye bye i shall go pack my bag now.

oh and i just want to say, i love my favourite people :) hahah.