ugh. planning modules never fail to stress me. especially now that i have to plan out my modules in relation to my major and blahblahblah. ARGH. i feel so stressed and screwed and yadayada. and i never fail to hate myself for not working as hard as i should have and could have for the first sem. at the same time i'm also really scared i continue to slack and bum around and not put in effort. and it worries me how i'll end up with damn mediocore grades and waste my time and my parents' money.

and i'm so PISSED that i have to do another asian studies module because i foolishly did SEA as my singapore studies module. i have like a damn phobia of them already la argh. and next sem looks like hell cos besides the asian studies module, i'm going to have to do stats which is reputed for it's "horrible-ness" and a level three psych module in preparation to complete my credits for psych and another exposure module which i'm trying to find out which is the least evil. and yeah basically next sem sucks. and planning for it sucks just as bad if not more.

and i might have to work on sat and somehow that stresses me too cos i was mentally unprepared to work at all this month and i somehow feel nervous about it again.

this post is quite incoherent and i'm not bothering to read through or edit so i shall just leave it in the same confused mess that i am in right now.