ok i feel like shitcrap now. cos tomorrow i'm going to say hello to a big fat C for history. and i dont know how to stop that from happening. i just can't read the readings. i've been trying the whole day, that and trying to listen to webcasts, but it's so MINDNUMBINGLY BORING i cant absorb anything. and the worst thing is this is all my own fault. my fault for choosing this module. my fault for not keeping up with readings. my fault for not trying at all. my fault for being a big fat lazy bum with no piorities. my fault for not being able to write good essays. but the thing is i dont feel upset with myself for that. in fact i feel upset with myself for not feeing upset with myself, if that even makes any sense. i feel like crying but that is just so ridiculous. haha. i need some form of comfort man but i dont think anyone or anything can comfort me right now. oh except say my professor telling me he'll give me a B for sure tomorrow.