WHY oh WHY (pun intended) am i majoring in psych. this thought can't stop running through my brain every time i study for health psych. this stupid module has done nothing but make me feel unintelligent and like i can't grasp and apply the concepts, dislike psych and all it's bullshitting studies and theories, and feel immensely tired that beyond all the theories i need to know lie endless journals with endless studies done with sometimes barely significant results but yet are important because EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT BECAUSE RESEARCH COSTS MONEY AND SO THEY MUST(!) CONCLUDE SOMETHING FROM IT.

ok am clearly bitter here. haha. this is so ridiculous. am feeling the intense dislike i felt for history and lit last time. considering i dropped one and pretty much gave up on the other, i am greatly worried. am wondering if i should switch major to english and end my torture. but it's so damn risky at this point! and i'd totally kill myself if i end up hating english too. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

this 8 day break in exams is pure torture. especially when i don't know how the hell to study for that exam. or rather, i can't bring myself to read that awful text especially when i know that it won't even secure me a good grade. ok this brings me to another rant. SERIOUSLY HATE THIS HEALTH PSYCH MODULE and how it's structured. the lecturer like doggedly believes in no spoonfeeding. to the extent that his damn lecture notes are like seriously blank and you have to find all the journal articles by yourself and mind you! he cites literally one article per slide. and! his bloody lectures dont even follow the text. in fact, though they cover generally the same concepts, they seem (to me at least) to be taking entirely different approaches to it. give me a bloody headache man. grrrr.

OK have to stop talking about this, gets me irritated. all i want to do is sleep and get this exam thing OVER AND DONE WITH ARGH!